There are moments when words escape me. I can’t find them, I can’t say them, or I feel like I\u2019m not allowed to. They linger in a corner of my mind, suspended, hidden among my thoughts, turning into shadows of what they could have been. But where do the words I don\u2019t say go? They remain trapped inside me, hanging in the air like rain-heavy clouds that never fall. Or they settle deep within, leaving a mark, a groove, a rigid scar that I will always feel.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
My mind grows harder, my thoughts are no longer free to flow; they must struggle through scars, obstacles, and the narrow passages of unspoken words. Passages crowded with ghosts, gathering like stagnant water in a dark corner. This forced silence, which once seemed necessary, comfortable, polite, ends up feeding doubts and insecurities. Sometimes it turns into regret; other times, it becomes a ghost that returns when I least expect it, in ways I never imagined\u2014anxiety, anger, torment.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
But as I reflect on all this, one word comes to mind\u2014one of the hardest to say, but even harder to think and feel: NO. The refusal that allows me to stay free, to keep my mind flexible, preventing it from stagnating among ghosts and suffocated words.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And yet, there is hope: unspoken words can be found again. Maybe I will never say them to those I once wanted to, maybe the right moment has passed, maybe time has changed everything.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I will start here: if I cannot yet speak the words I didn\u2019t say, at least I will think them again.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Maria Giubettini<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
There are moments when words escape me. I can’t find them, I can’t say them, or I feel like I\u2019m not allowed to. They linger in a corner of my mind, suspended, hidden among my thoughts, turning into shadows of what they could have been. But where do the words I don\u2019t say go? They […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":5,"featured_media":6510,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_acf_changed":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-6512","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-blog"],"acf":[],"yoast_head":"\n